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muuraflash................saviour of the UNIVERSE ..... KA CHING........ an anime tingle can be seen from the corner of my eye, as I pose, ready to write to myself and a dear reader
Shirt seen here by the impeccable Lurian
this song will never not remind me of my friend Suzn but also it's appropriate to think about, as I'm going to be GM'ing a tabletop RPG called MASKS in about a week, and a playlist would be appropriate when thinking about young and uncertain superheroes not yet used to their powers. Guess what can be their power anthem, and the very first thing in the playlist. I do recommend this game, I'll find some time to write about it in a later date definitely, for now I'll leave you with the notion of not many games being so successful in being able to make a game system about player characters bouncing off from eachother and from the world so well and in such a vulnerable way.
Back in December I was very gung ho about my intentions with "slow internet", as I call it in my little plans for it. Blogging, I said! What great and considerate form of bringing oneself to be seen in the on of line! Fucking nuts is what it is! You try to do things other than tweet when you're last minute preparing for a five day furry convention in Malmö! Attempt to blog when your all waking hours are conquered by none other than the worst beast of all - technical college schoolwork! Frustrating and timeconsuming more than it is challenging! You're not here to type on a laptop, you scream in anguish, I am here to design the best set lighting one can see in years and to cast the most prominent of amateur actors to be the icon and symbol of love in my screenplay..................... alas you must click thru these rings of multiple choice questionnaire about whence in the sentence you shall put a comma
which brings me to a point of why I decided to make a blogpost now. WELL, IT IS AN ACTUAL ASSIGNMENT IN SCHOOL, TO WRITE A POST OF BLOG. it can be a "fictional" blog, but of course since I have one, I will make one. it might slightly defeat the point to write this in english for a class in finnish but the point of this particular exercise is to practise personal way of writing, isn't it! It's always easier to write in whatever you speak daily but the internet is big and i like it when more than 5 people know how to read whatever im saying around here
i'll ponder at a later date what would be the perfect purpose of a blog, but right now I feel like i'd like to archive some thoughts I've had the past months. CLEVER of me to spend the remaining hours of my day before a friend GM's Genesys for me to write this and claim i am doing schoolwork. it is technically but we all know i could use this time to maybe touch up on the course of Project Management or maybe even the storyboard about a poem I should be doing
*eyes blur as I think about danny trejo* i did NOT know he is the little cousin of robert rodriquez
school is busy, is what im trying to say, and school making me so busy is making me also fill my calendar with non-school related things so i can offset the time i spend in school by non-school time which means all the time is all of the time
i have talked about a movie pitch me and my classmate did which consumed a lot of my time and feelings since december and january, which ended up in us deciding we will make our movie outside of our current school hours and start filming it next autumn, which was an excellent choice all around, pats to all of our backs because we are making a challenging to make movie about burning witches with stop motion animation and fire and puppet theater and we definitely do need more time than a few weeks to make it
im thinking of next summer, during which i would like to script my comic. it would also be ideally pre-production time for this short movie we are planning... and i am genuinely wanting to start "INTERNET SLOW CULTURE REVIVAL PROJECT" where i make websites about favourite anime and gifs and encourage other people to do them as well via guides and webrings.......... i wonder if i could get school projects points with this.......? i want to do it anyway but any extra encouragement would be amazing lol. going back to comic scripting, i did the script for an about 7 minute long short movie and it felt exhilirating to do and finish something like that. (i intend to translate it to english later because id like to show off what im so very proud of, haha) i think id like to try scripting a comic from start to finish as well? i dont think my working pattern of "drawing and making up stuff as i go" helps very much, to say the least, and the idea of having a finished pattern to follow makes it feel so linear and clear to myself. it just makes sense! my brain is all muddled and weird and having something like this just makes sense!!!! i feel so excited, which is a lot more than usual you can say about my state and relationship regarding comics lately.
have you heard of the genesys system, by the way? it takes a while to learn how the skills work, but the way to level up in it is very satisfying, since you get exp every session and you get to use it immediately, say you get 20 exp, you can use 5xp to get a new skill or 10 to make an old skill level up to 2, or even more for level 3. the skills are universal so any kind of system works in it. ours has trolls, and wulvar (wolf-headed people) and elves, and a very specific setting of magic being woken up from a long slumber. in very scandi woods! my wulvar Brek is very fun to play, because fullfilling dreams of stern bodyguards is very much close to my interests.
i could talk more about a really cool larp i was in and also of the movie production that just finished filming but even this much of writing feels like i am dried out. i notice i am doing the sort of cataloguing rambling thing in here that id rather do on a website.......... like neocities......but! hey! next time! its all in the way we do it. i am rather disapppointed in myself if this blog turns out to be something i feel obligated to write in after months of quiet in between just for the sake of posting, instead of having something to say and think and then maybe sitting down and writing it here... as a diary of sorts... instead of rummaging everything in my head, and never perhaps succeeding in forming thoughts you could bite into. chunky thoughts. but the more you make something a routine, the more often it might happen when it is supposed to, i think. let me be a thirty year old for a second, and make you picture this: times in livejournal, people writing nearly daily in their blogs. bite size thoughts to sit down with, to have a conversation with. next time when i think i will rather exchange a few tweets and instastories for a more thoughtful bit of writing here.
i encourage anyone reading this to make a blog post of their own, and then to tell me about it. i promise to read it.
to finish this entry off, some links.
my comic blog twitter has had some comics about writing and new beginnings you should look at.
Isabel Fall's "I Sexually Identify as an Attack Helicopter" is an amazing read, and was taken down because of people reading the title and aggressively misunderstanding what a tremendous work about sexuality and gender this is.
i was going to have more links, but ive attempted to make food with my own grubby hands since the first time in months and i have to see how that went down, and that before mentioned genesys game is starting soon, and its still very new to me and the excitement happening before it is also a bit nervewrecking because i try to make a thick finnish accent but instead make a russian one.
Shirt seen here by the impeccable Lurian
this song will never not remind me of my friend Suzn but also it's appropriate to think about, as I'm going to be GM'ing a tabletop RPG called MASKS in about a week, and a playlist would be appropriate when thinking about young and uncertain superheroes not yet used to their powers. Guess what can be their power anthem, and the very first thing in the playlist. I do recommend this game, I'll find some time to write about it in a later date definitely, for now I'll leave you with the notion of not many games being so successful in being able to make a game system about player characters bouncing off from eachother and from the world so well and in such a vulnerable way.
Back in December I was very gung ho about my intentions with "slow internet", as I call it in my little plans for it. Blogging, I said! What great and considerate form of bringing oneself to be seen in the on of line! Fucking nuts is what it is! You try to do things other than tweet when you're last minute preparing for a five day furry convention in Malmö! Attempt to blog when your all waking hours are conquered by none other than the worst beast of all - technical college schoolwork! Frustrating and timeconsuming more than it is challenging! You're not here to type on a laptop, you scream in anguish, I am here to design the best set lighting one can see in years and to cast the most prominent of amateur actors to be the icon and symbol of love in my screenplay..................... alas you must click thru these rings of multiple choice questionnaire about whence in the sentence you shall put a comma
which brings me to a point of why I decided to make a blogpost now. WELL, IT IS AN ACTUAL ASSIGNMENT IN SCHOOL, TO WRITE A POST OF BLOG. it can be a "fictional" blog, but of course since I have one, I will make one. it might slightly defeat the point to write this in english for a class in finnish but the point of this particular exercise is to practise personal way of writing, isn't it! It's always easier to write in whatever you speak daily but the internet is big and i like it when more than 5 people know how to read whatever im saying around here
i'll ponder at a later date what would be the perfect purpose of a blog, but right now I feel like i'd like to archive some thoughts I've had the past months. CLEVER of me to spend the remaining hours of my day before a friend GM's Genesys for me to write this and claim i am doing schoolwork. it is technically but we all know i could use this time to maybe touch up on the course of Project Management or maybe even the storyboard about a poem I should be doing
*eyes blur as I think about danny trejo* i did NOT know he is the little cousin of robert rodriquez
school is busy, is what im trying to say, and school making me so busy is making me also fill my calendar with non-school related things so i can offset the time i spend in school by non-school time which means all the time is all of the time
i have talked about a movie pitch me and my classmate did which consumed a lot of my time and feelings since december and january, which ended up in us deciding we will make our movie outside of our current school hours and start filming it next autumn, which was an excellent choice all around, pats to all of our backs because we are making a challenging to make movie about burning witches with stop motion animation and fire and puppet theater and we definitely do need more time than a few weeks to make it
im thinking of next summer, during which i would like to script my comic. it would also be ideally pre-production time for this short movie we are planning... and i am genuinely wanting to start "INTERNET SLOW CULTURE REVIVAL PROJECT" where i make websites about favourite anime and gifs and encourage other people to do them as well via guides and webrings.......... i wonder if i could get school projects points with this.......? i want to do it anyway but any extra encouragement would be amazing lol. going back to comic scripting, i did the script for an about 7 minute long short movie and it felt exhilirating to do and finish something like that. (i intend to translate it to english later because id like to show off what im so very proud of, haha) i think id like to try scripting a comic from start to finish as well? i dont think my working pattern of "drawing and making up stuff as i go" helps very much, to say the least, and the idea of having a finished pattern to follow makes it feel so linear and clear to myself. it just makes sense! my brain is all muddled and weird and having something like this just makes sense!!!! i feel so excited, which is a lot more than usual you can say about my state and relationship regarding comics lately.
have you heard of the genesys system, by the way? it takes a while to learn how the skills work, but the way to level up in it is very satisfying, since you get exp every session and you get to use it immediately, say you get 20 exp, you can use 5xp to get a new skill or 10 to make an old skill level up to 2, or even more for level 3. the skills are universal so any kind of system works in it. ours has trolls, and wulvar (wolf-headed people) and elves, and a very specific setting of magic being woken up from a long slumber. in very scandi woods! my wulvar Brek is very fun to play, because fullfilling dreams of stern bodyguards is very much close to my interests.
i could talk more about a really cool larp i was in and also of the movie production that just finished filming but even this much of writing feels like i am dried out. i notice i am doing the sort of cataloguing rambling thing in here that id rather do on a website.......... like neocities......but! hey! next time! its all in the way we do it. i am rather disapppointed in myself if this blog turns out to be something i feel obligated to write in after months of quiet in between just for the sake of posting, instead of having something to say and think and then maybe sitting down and writing it here... as a diary of sorts... instead of rummaging everything in my head, and never perhaps succeeding in forming thoughts you could bite into. chunky thoughts. but the more you make something a routine, the more often it might happen when it is supposed to, i think. let me be a thirty year old for a second, and make you picture this: times in livejournal, people writing nearly daily in their blogs. bite size thoughts to sit down with, to have a conversation with. next time when i think i will rather exchange a few tweets and instastories for a more thoughtful bit of writing here.
i encourage anyone reading this to make a blog post of their own, and then to tell me about it. i promise to read it.
to finish this entry off, some links.
my comic blog twitter has had some comics about writing and new beginnings you should look at.
Isabel Fall's "I Sexually Identify as an Attack Helicopter" is an amazing read, and was taken down because of people reading the title and aggressively misunderstanding what a tremendous work about sexuality and gender this is.
i was going to have more links, but ive attempted to make food with my own grubby hands since the first time in months and i have to see how that went down, and that before mentioned genesys game is starting soon, and its still very new to me and the excitement happening before it is also a bit nervewrecking because i try to make a thick finnish accent but instead make a russian one.
